Tomorrow is my going away party and it's really hitting me that I'm doing this on my own.
I truly believe that life will work out, I will experience the things I need to become the person I'm destined to become. But what if I'm destined to become a failure, what if something irredeemable happens? My mother has instilled all these fears and low self-esteem heavily lately, that I almost want to not do it, succumb to her pressure and harassment.
Do what mother says right? That's what they say.
Either way, my friends have been pushing me forward, encouraging and advising me; everything family should do. As I've said it before and will say it again: my friends are my family. It's time to move on. I'm on a plane in 4 days and land in Melbourne where my only plan is to make it to the hotel I booked.
The planner in me is scarred shitless. Is that really my only plan right now?!?
I truly believe that life will work out, I will experience the things I need to become the person I'm destined to become. But what if I'm destined to become a failure, what if something irredeemable happens? My mother has instilled all these fears and low self-esteem heavily lately, that I almost want to not do it, succumb to her pressure and harassment.
Do what mother says right? That's what they say.
Either way, my friends have been pushing me forward, encouraging and advising me; everything family should do. As I've said it before and will say it again: my friends are my family. It's time to move on. I'm on a plane in 4 days and land in Melbourne where my only plan is to make it to the hotel I booked.
The planner in me is scarred shitless. Is that really my only plan right now?!?
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